Hello-
Resident Evil , or should I say Pirat ? Coming to you directly from Penthouse 43 in the Aviemores sothwest suburbia..
Tonight the wind is blowing , the candles are lit - well one of them and I feel O.K. having just some 2 hours ago had my n20 though Im afraid it will have to wait till tomorrow till I know its full effects , in the meantime then Im kicking back with my big mug of tea , my Kreteks at the ready and an amicable state of mind.
During the Interlude of this year and probably in response to my last message it seem my relationship with my then dearest of friends M.a.t.t. is more or less offically over - both mobile and landline numbers are changed and thats about that bringing my grand total of human friends to 0 or 1 if you count Steve who , since stealing my card, has been depromoted back to associate with a big question mark at the end.
Unlike last year there is no grand sum of money either at my disposal to leave having already spent a ( sizeable ) amount in Washington earlier this year - money then become an issue again - things l can do - and the realisation they too are infringed by the very same elements that have kept me the last 6 months..
By rights i should have at least 3000 then from my meager earnings but instead its almost half - thats the lowest my cash has been in some time and no thanks to my Peru trip which left me scammed , demoralised and for the better part stuck in hostel nursing my wounds.
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I hope - nay pray this is last of these unfortunate years though you could probably throw in 04 for good measure and call it quits already .
As it stands then my idea is to still navigate the outermost reaches of my cran-ium and try to exercise what I can, I dont know and I dont see any other way round that and as result Im probably looking at whats left of the year in here too, If i can get out , cycle esp on nights like this it will be bonus - hell like flying for the average person ..
Not too much else to say for just now -
Most other things have taken back step as they usually do , but Im still fighting , if anything by the end of my existence here on Earth I will know that - hell I already do
Night Night Sweethearts..
August marks for me the 2nd wind... traditionally since 99 the first part of the year has always been worst , why I dont know but for me this is when things usually pick up and those small factors or tentures of fate at least hold wind for a while with that said then and in ploar opposition to spring I find August and Autum my true emergence as of late.
Things are finely balanced and without sounding like Gandalf my fate just now certainly is in my hands , as for the most part it always has with the exceptions ( all be it terrible ones ) here and there.
Outside theres cool wind blowing through my wind and some proclean clouds riding on the blue .. things seem resonable enough at least for while until tonight - thats when the balloons arrive..
THINGS TO ADDRESS:
1) L is substitute for something else - its not love but it used to be
2) L is unspoken as result of the above as something is only perfect once there is no point repeating it
3) L could be for learner or lunatic one comes before the other and sometimes at the price of attempting both
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Soma- Is place where people with no homes go so they can be observed by those that do if you are homeless please do not go there
Soma - Could of been the answer - but aliens found it first
Soma - Is characterised but characteristics not on the merits of whats not there , if it was then it wouldnt exist and the fish in the pond would be much happier
NEEDS
We all have needs , reducing them are good and sometimes necessary
PART 2
Any one can read this but only a few can understand what I mean - if your lucky your not one of them
Part 2 is Part 2 this does not mean areawakening or grand return from exile or sudden explosion of goodness it just means that Part 1 wasnt very good and every chapter usually has a second.
This unoffically marks the new shit or old shit forcing itself up into the void from whence it came.
Gotta love Squirrels .
capt g & his crew of heathen men
Who is the very first friend you ever had? Are you still in touch?
Myself
This is my final post ..
Watch this space ...
What are five things that most people don't know about you?
Submitted by mika.
My illness because no one else has it period - http://othersideofeden.tripod.com
What I look like - see above
Where I live - see above
What my name is - see above
What I sound like - see above
Just another day of shite, less feeling in my hands
Another probelm to add to my plight of this ever expanding plan
The smoke that worked to strengthen my joints other day wont work anymore
And according to what I read today will leave them feeling sore
More ringing in the ears and less words to speak this year has been terrible strain and my heart is growing weak..
More needles to come and more days of endless rain
Oh what hope to spin again when life has gone insane ..
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Im trying to ignore what I am while faintly being obessed about plans
The ingoranta is ineed on the reverse bleep when Im smoking my majurinna and slipping on sheets
