I am at the point now where I sit as I am confront myself again for time.

This has happened times before in different instances but not as I am now.

To say alive now is to fight harder each day on account of a mistake made the previous day and the day before that, all these mistakes started somewhere on road which has already been erased.

Some people would call me to find I am actually still accountable for myself , usually the very same people who had some role in these matters beforehand and denounce all involvement with a cry.

The Autumn is good time to set pace and forgot the offerings previously bought, sell them to death and be sure to get a good rate.

Birds fly backwards but never sing when the ice maiden tree appears .

The tree is already exposed and red from birds feathers stuck between its greedy leaves .

Fits of laughter herald a lazy eye upon the virigins breast torn from its womb and the babe has been christened already twice.

Some time passes and some time passes again , the age of reason is born.

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Beyondwonderland

Boiler

Limp Bizkit

The passage of time
On the same road
The exit before me
As shadows unfold...

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9                                                       this is new month                      but I've seen it before
                                                            this is new month                   but I've seen it before     
                                                             this is new month                but I've seen it before

Turnaway

                                         Repetition is the answer

that sustains the need for more- 

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Thethreat

YES - I held true to my intent the moth is dead , or at least one of them but it was fight...

For a while I thought he disappeared into the same portal his friend did but it appears this one decided to try a sneak attack from behind right at my head !!

This was simply not on - especially as I had my back turned and especially as his friend some previous nights before caused me to bugger up my knee by trying to avoid him - so this one had to pay.

Out came the aresol and extra long matches but the bugger flew too high to get until I put away my flame and once more went for my head a 2nd time.

After attempts some failed swats and almost letting him be I had just about turned my back when I saw his wicked scheme out of the corner of my eye.

Unkowing to the moth then it had quite suprise when after sneeking into my trainer I gassed him out ( Of course he was hiding right at the toe ) This took a good 15 seconds of spraying and some shaking before he was disorintated enough to fall out and land promptly outside my batcave where he was game.

I didnt waste any time then and proceeded to torch him with 5 burst of flame charring his wings and legs and leaving him or IT flightless and awaiting certain death which of course I was happy to oblige with.

Hopefully one of the spiders outside will make use of him as in supper while in the meantime I bask in glory.

Its been 2 years since a confrontation of the sorts and probably not the last !!

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El Topo (1970) - Trailer

Someone thought I might like this though I havent watched it yet still I felt inclined to post it while sitting here sipping my tea and.. great another fuckin moth.. this clever bastard made it before closing time ..

In spite of what Don Juan says I cant bring myself to like them , not one bit and this gits hiding under my bed thats the 2nd big one thats gotten in here now and has mysteriously disappeared , are they forming some sort of cult of group ready to attack me in one swarm ?

Well the little bastards better think again cos next time its toastie time and guess whats on the menu ?

THAT RIGHT

I got one good areosol can

and one good lighter

and a funeral pyre already for them waiting in the corner..

Or maybe I'll make a little Gillet cage to put them in outside my window to show I mean business..

Now if only I had one of those electric stunner things and attache it to my like picco Z copter ..

Moth Vs Picco Z ( apper )

More Later...

You wish

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Date : July, 04 
Time : 5.30 am
Location : Madison WI
Mood : Anxious, Curious

Comments : I took 3 hits of Toad Toxin ( Bufotenin ) not sure if it contained DMT at 4.30 pm with no apprent results then took Datura much later on that night ontop of this .

Results : The Datura completely comprmised my gait , tissue matrix to the point all my joints felt elastic and I was having great difficulty standing . What happened after this is unkown though it seems some folk where with me and I had mild recollections of flashabacks of being in different locations at different times . There was no notion of time passing however between these events so in essence it felt very much like I was being teleported or teleporting from one various time / place to another .

Supposedly I also spent a good period of time talking in strange accents that seemed belivable to unseen " things "..

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On_the_edge

TAKE A DIP

SWITCH THE SWTICH        TURNAROUND

AND SIT ON IT

LOOK BENEATH          TRY NOT STARE

HOLD YOUR BREATH

AND STILL THE AIR

SCRATCH AND ITCH     LEARN TO TRY

WHATEVERS THERE

AS SURE AS MINDS

THE HOUR HAUNTS               OOZES DOWN

THAT FACE YOU WATCH                                   YOU KEEP AROUND

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Ministry - Paisley

Ministry

Stargazinver1

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Hello-

Resident Evil , or should I say Pirat ? Coming to you directly from Penthouse 43 in the Aviemores sothwest suburbia..

Tonight the wind is blowing , the candles are lit - well one of them and I feel O.K. having just some 2 hours ago had my n20 though Im afraid it will have to wait till tomorrow till I know its full effects , in the meantime then Im kicking back with my big mug of tea , my Kreteks at the ready and an amicable state of mind.

During the Interlude of this year and probably in response to my last message it seem my relationship with my then dearest of friends M.a.t.t. is more or less offically over - both mobile and landline numbers are changed and thats about that bringing my grand total of human friends to 0 or 1 if you count Steve who , since stealing my card, has been depromoted back to associate with a big question mark at the end.

Unlike last year there is no grand sum of money either at my disposal to leave having already spent a ( sizeable ) amount in Washington earlier this year - money then become an issue again - things l can do - and the realisation they too are infringed by the very same elements that have kept me the last 6 months..

By rights i should have at least 3000 then from my meager earnings but instead its almost half - thats the lowest my cash has been in some time and no thanks to my Peru trip which left me scammed , demoralised and for the better part stuck in hostel nursing my wounds.

05 ___________________

06 _________________

Gazedaze

07__________________

I hope - nay pray this is last of these unfortunate years though you could probably throw in 04 for good measure and call it quits already .

As it stands then my idea is to still navigate the outermost reaches of my cran-ium and try to exercise what I can, I dont know and I dont see any other way round that and as result Im probably looking at whats left of the year in here too, If i can get out , cycle esp on nights like this it will be bonus - hell like flying for the average person ..

Not too much else to say for just now -

Most other things have taken back step as they usually do , but Im still fighting , if anything by the end of my existence here on Earth I will know that - hell I already do

Night Night Sweethearts..

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